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Thursday, 30 April 2009

  • God Has A Plan

    I was recently in a situation where things did not turn out as expected. At first, to be honest, I was completely and utterly bewildered. I really could not wrap my mind around what had happened. I could not understand how things could turn out this way. "Seriously?! What are you THINKING?!" But as I had time to process it a small, subtle voice whispered to me "God has a plan."

    [Side tangent]Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not ENTIRELY convinced that the way the situation turned out is how God wanted it. Maybe it is, maybe it isn't, but there are just too many people involved. Still I'm not going to put God in a box.[/tangent]

    God can and will work through this situation. Some really good things are going to come out of this and I believe with all my heart that, if I let him, God will do miraculous things through this. So, now is the time to turn my attention to God. Now is the time to seek his will in this situation and remain sensitive to his talking. Now is the time to find out what God wants to do through me and others and do my absolute best to make that happen. I know that if I can do that, and if all of us can do that, then we will ultimately be successful.

    All for the glory of God.

Monday, 13 April 2009

  • Time to start blogging...again...

    A friends recent blogging revival has inspired me to start blogging again...we'll see how long it lasts this time.

    I didn't go home for Easter because we only had Friday and Monday off and it seemed too complicated to try to figure out how to get home for four days. So, I went home with Sila(Lisa) instead. It was a lot of fun! Her family is super sweet and made me feel right at home. They do a lot together. They eat lunch and dinner together, they go for walks together, they play games together, they watch movies together, etc. Every day I was there we did something where we got to spend time with each other. It was so much fun! I got to talk to and bond with Sila a lot. It was fun to have a sister for the weekend. It was interesting, too, to see how they functioned. Everybody's family is so different and it was cool to be a part of something so entirely different from my own life. I really enjoyed my time with them.

    I have been thinking and praying a lot about my future life, especially my future husband. I am realizing more and more everyday just how special and intimate I want our relationship to be. Sure, there isn't anybody now, but I have faith that God will put us together in his perfect timing. In the mean time, I've been learning what personality traits I want him to have and developing those traits in myself. We had a chapel speaker two weeks ago who talked about this. He said that the first traits we should look for in a partner are the fruits of the spirit, so that is what I am starting with. I have a list in the back of my quiet time journal that I refer to and have made a commitment to work on one every day. When the time comes, I want to be the best girlfriend, fiance, and wife that I can and in order to do that  I need to start working on myself now.

    More to come later (maybe). Right now, it's dinner time! ^_^

Friday, 03 October 2008

  • Ups and downs

    Today was definitely a day full of ups and downs. Let me take you step by step.

    Up: Read John 13-16 today. I really like reading about Jesus (well, duh!). I'm really learning a lot about his personality that I never quite caught on to before. I feel like I'm getting to know him on a much deeper level. Always a good thing.

    Down: Did not get the stuff done that I wanted to this morning. Was not as productive as originally planned. Bummer...

    Up: Chapel was good. Most of the time it is. I enjoy Chapel.

    Down: Guy who sits by me in Chapel does not pay attention. It frustrates me.

    Up: Found out today that my Ed./Dev. Psych prof. really liked our presentation. (Always a good thing.) Also, I did really well on my test in that class. I love the Ed. courses.

    Down: Piano class was frustrating. People showing off and/or playing very loud and obnoxiously gets on my nerves and gives me a headache.

    Up: Got to fix a horn today. I enjoy repairing horns.

    Down: Band was...frustrating to say the least. I was really getting irritated with some people.

    Up: Prayer Warriors was amazing! God REALLY taught me a lot in such a small amount of time.

    I wonder if you see what I see. When I look at all the ups of my day, I see God at work. I see him teaching me and using me for his glory. When I look at the downs I see a lot of selfishness...I see a lot of my darker side coming out. All of those situations (minus the headache...those just happen sometimes...) could have been prevented had I just looked to God before I acted/reacted. Had I turned to God in those situations my day would have been a lot smoother and I would have presented a much better witness to Christ. Today, like many before it, I failed at being a Christian. I did not represent Christ well. I pray that there was minimal damage done because of me letting myself get in the way. I am very thankful that I serve a God who loves me so much and is willing to forgive because I ask him to. I am grateful that he can do a wonderful work in me and through me. Today I sinned and fell short. Tomorrow I will try harder to keep myself out of the way and let God do what he wants to do through me. I will fix my gaze upon Jesus and let the spirit lead me.

    Father,
    You are wonderful and I am beyond blessed by the fact that you call me, an insignificant little spec in the grand scheme, a beloved child. You are just so amazing and your works are breath-taking. It's so wonderful how you love me as I am so undeserving. Reveal you love to me. I pray that as I sleep my dreams would be flooded with you. As I go about my day tomorrow, I pray that I would constantly point to you and that everyone would see that you are at work. I pray that I would touch the lives of those who are lost. Show me people that need to be reached. Show me people that need to be loved. Give me patience and understanding when dealing with people. Let me see them through your eyes. Help me love them like you do. Have your will always in my life.
    Amen



Wednesday, 10 September 2008

  • Whatever-you-dos

    So last night Dr. Ball and Dr. Anderson had their annual piano recital. (I'm assuming it's annual because they had one around the same time last year...that's all I'm going off of, though.) It was absolutely spectacular! They are both magnificent players (and wonderful people)! It was highly entertaining and rather educational (more-so than most recitals I've been to). They played some classic piano literature, some hymn arrangements that they wrote themselves (they were amazing!), and a final piece that was variations on Yankee Doodle in the style of different composers (Bach, Beethoven, Chopin, Debussy, and Gershwin) that was a whole lot of fun.

    Both Dr. Anderson and Dr. Ball are amazing musicians but what really gives them an edge is that you can tell that they are fully aware that their talent is a gift from God and they use that talent to glorify God. There is just something about the way they perform that always points to God. I'm sure it starts with the attitude of their heart and that shows through with everything they do. It's as if nothing else matters except giving God the glory. That's the way it should be, right? I think as performers, a lot of times we get so wrapped up in the details of our performance that we ultimately forget why we are doing it in the first place. We get so worried about "Is it good enough for the audience?", "What will so-and-so think?", "does it meet the requirements for (insert recital here)?", "I hope I don't mess up this part I've been having trouble with", etc. We should be concerned with "Is it my best for the one who gifted me with this talent?" We should be playing for God. I've heard it said that we should play for God and if some other people just so happen to hear it then so be it. We should always be concerned with giving the glory to God. That is our top priority. Audience, teachers, judges, etc. are not as important as playing our best for our creator.

    I've been thinking about this all night last night and all day today. This morning I was reading in first Corinthians and I stumbled across a verse I've always liked. I think, as of this morning, it has become my new favorite. "So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God." - 1Corinthians 10:31 I thought it was neat that I came across that this morning. I've been thinking a lot about the "whatever-you-dos" (Dr. Quanstrom preached about this at a Chapel last year. It was a wonderful sermon) today. Whatever-you-dos include everything we do. Sitting in class, practicing, brushing our teeth, doing the dishes, etc. Everything we do should give glory to God. And why not? He deserves that and so much more...

    Just some things I've been chewing on...figured I'd share. Hope you all are having a wonderful day. Try to make a conscious decision to give glory to God in the whatever-you-dos.



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